If you die before you die, you won't die when you die.
— Inscription at Paul's Monastery on Mt. Athos
Almost the instant I gave birth to The Lens, a part of me wanted strangle it out of existence. It was conceived in 2015 as a paper I wrote in college. “Write a personal theory of psychotherapy”, Dr. Jacob said. So I embraced my shadow, shuddered through the embarrassment, and imagined a world in which I become famous for creating a church devoted to evidence-based practices rather than faith. The following year I tried mushrooms for the first time, and my vision for The Lens expanded to include reliable and