play music was (substantially?) improved when i got high. You see, @ one point in my life i was a fair to middlin' trumpet player. But in hindsight it seems likely that my "perception" was illusory. In any case, as i fell under the spell of the Sacred Herb (tm), it seemed so important to "fully embrace" Her power that i ended up doing a bunch of stuff, that, with the 20-20 vision of hindsight, really does seem quite ridiculous. One example is that i use to draw a large "hit" of marijuana smoke into my lungs
i guess maybe that's a clue. Should i not write to specific people here? As that's what i'd done, essentially composing a letter...
Hard to know. In any case, i was infused with a tremendous amount of emotion. And what i realized afterwards, as i (@ first reluctantly) decided not to upload what i'd written, to this totally public platform here, was that there'd been so much emotion driving me, as i wrote, that the promises i'd wanted to proclaim to my friends, loved ones, and the world, were not actually intentions i'm currently capable of following through on. And i find that i'm deeply saddened by not being able to live up to the idea