Description: My digital voice in a digital age about a complicated brain map.
After twenty six years of allowing myself to experience suffering, twelve years of soul searching and four years of being on anti-depressants I decided to go cold turkey and come off anti-depressants. Three months ago, I rebelled. I did what I do best.
‘Yes’, it has been very difficult and ‘No’ please do not do what I did until you have spoken to your doctor. I spoke to my doctor who advised me not to go cold turkey but seriously, I had had enough. I wanted to feel emotions again, I wanted to live, feel alive and I wanted to realise what I had been doing to my body and this is what has happened in the last three months… I’ve cried, a lot, I’ve felt dizzy, a lot, I’ve started exercising, I feel a lot of anger, I still don’t feel like I’m living, I have
I still have no idea what I am doing on this planet, what is the purpose of my existence? ‘Yes’ I do feel like giving up because my brain is so crazy at the moment or we could say ‘Frazzled’ as Ruby Wax refers to it.