On 22nd August 2019 I had a spontaneous remission from the emotional pain that has dragged me so low for this three and a half years. So many times I wanted not to be here. Under my breath, I cursed the doctors, surgeon and oncologist who kept me alive after a stage 3 bowel cancer diagnosis last year. The cancer surgery and six months of chemo was a piece of cake compared to the devastating pain and the trauma the depression had on me and my family. The only thing that stopped me from taking my life was th
He very quietly said to me “Brian, if you
take your life your pain does not go with you,